I was so touched by the comments from the previous post. Wow.
An interesting fact, right before publishing that post I told Jason I was planning to disable comments because I was afraid and nervous. The subject matter was so raw and personal. Well, Jas talked me out of that, reminding me how inspiring comments have been in the past and what a wonderful support they can be for us. So I kept comments turned on, published the post and fell asleep after some tossing and turning. The next morning I woke to a bright, sunny bedroom and then came a kick in the stomach... That post! I actually pushed publish last night! Jason was already in the kitchen and told me to check the computer. My back came off that bed and my feet hit the floor in a sprint! Oh no oh no oh no.
Then I read.
And I was so happy for it. Thank you.
I am so grateful for all of you and your heartfelt kindness and camaraderie. I was touched by each comment. Reenergized by words like "You've got this!" "You are doing great girl!" "Just keep swimming!" and even "Thank you." Reading of your trials and love brought us to tears.
Danielle referenced a beautiful quote that has helped her through trying times, "Sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying, 'I will try again tomorrow'" by Ralph Waldo Emerson, quoted by Thomas S. Monson in his encouraging and inspiring message, "Living the Abundant Life". This has stayed with me ever since I read your comment. What a peaceful phrasing—it rings true in my heart.
"...thankfully time does pass... and memories become faint and our brains do heal" and we move on. I'm counting on this Caley. Holding onto this hope with white knuckles, and I think I can feel it happening around me as we plan our move across the country and look ahead to moving forward. (thank you for our chats and your shoulder)
And Wonderchris, the lipstick isle at CVS is my favorite, for all the same reasons. A girl after my own heart. I pray you and your husband are doing well.
It makes me so happy to hear that Jason's coming back to health has been noticeable through the posts over the past months. Oh my goodness so happy! Thank you for saying so Samantha Jo.
And Aunt Ellen (EB), thank you. I admire your strength and faith.
What I have come to find is that this... thing... I've been experiencing is pretty universal when it comes to trauma. Even if our struggles have not been the same, we can relate, we're not alone. And I feel that's a very important thing to know.
"There will be times when you will be frightened and discouraged. You may feel that you are defeated. The odds of obtaining victory may appear overwhelming. At times you may feel like David trying to fight Goliath. But remember—David did win!" . Thomas S. Monson ("Living the Abundant Life")
p.s. I'm sorry to those who have been checking the blog faithfully, only to find nothing new. I've got big plans to be better, promise. ;)