Ok. So for the first time in my life I want to talk about weight with..... all of you. BUT on here and only on here. If we have ourselves a chat in real life I don't want to hear a word about weight or exercise or pant sizes unless it's you telling me how completely and totally fantastic I look. (and I'll take as much of that as I can get! but only if you mean it :)
I have decided that this is the year that I want to start liking myself again. I'm not saying I haven't been feeling the love, but I am saying that it's been a while since I have felt good about myself because of the weight that has been adding together throughout the last few years (and they have been the most stressful and emotional years of my life so I firmly believe that I deserve every single piece of dark chocolate I had. but maybe not everything else).
The funny thing about weight (or being overweight) is you think about it when you're awake, you think about it when you're going to sleep, you think about it every time you wake up in the night and first thing when you get up in the morning. People might say things to "help" you, trying to "wake you up" or something, but that is really not helpful because you are already fully aware and you are the only person in this world who can help you. And that's what I have made up my mind to do. This year I am going to help myself out a little bit. I refuse to live another year not loving myself and the way I look. I refuse to be limited by the way I feel about myself. I refuse to wait any longer to be totally happy with my body.
I'm not saying that I'm morbidly obese, but I know that I am a little overweight and I don't want to be. I don't feel as healthy or as in shape as I used to, and I definitely don't feel as comfortable in my own skin. It's not like I haven't tried in the past—I have. I have dropped 10 lbs here, gained 15 there. But this time it will be different, there will be real results because I'm going to change my life this year. I watched a close friend do it last year and now she's almost to her goal and she's happier than I have ever seen her! She's more herself and more confident and it was all because she made the decision to change.
So here's the plan:
I am always behind the camera, almost never in front of it, so when I do see a recent photo of myself I am taken back by the person I see there. Photos don't lie and it seems like the only place I can really see me—alllllllll of me. So there will be photos taken after every 10 lbs and photos to start out (and not the creepy bikini kind).
I am drinking 2 meal replacement shakes a day (in place of meals, not in addition to) for 3o days to jump start myself.
I am eating one healthy snack between breakfast and lunch and another between lunch and dinner.
The kitchen closes at 7:30 pm each night (that means no more munching after that time).
I am drinking lots of water and staying hydrated.
I am exercising 5 times a week with Wii Active 2, running and Just Dance 2 (because dancing is fun and it might make me excited to work out on those days that I'm dreaaaaaaading it).
I'm going to go to bed earlier and and wake up earlier.
I won't be disclosing how much I weigh (unless something comes over me and I decide I really want to). And if you ask, I probably won't tell you :)
Now you are wondering why I am spilling my guts to you?
Number one, because motivation is key. I know that all of you are going to be watching me through cyberspace (ha! haven't heard that term since You've Got Mail) and I don't want to fall on my face. You are going to help me keep going.
Number two, because I want you to join me! But only if you want to. We all know how beneficial it is to have a partner in weight-loss. You don't have to follow my plan, you don't have to do exactly what I'm doing—but if you want to shed some pounds that you found from life in general, having babies or whatever and you want a buddy, I want a buddy too! We can be buddies with each other! Email me and we'll get ourselves a little network going.
(geriegbert at gmail dot com)
I'm going to continue talking about this (don't worry, it won't be taking over). I'll be sharing my favorite snacks, exercise highs (and lows, possibly more lows I'm sure) and other things I choose to share.
Oh I am sooooooooo nervous to share this post. You can't even imagine how nervous I am to push publish. I'm letting it all hang out. And for someone who wants to let it all hang in (or something like that) this is hard for me. So hard but so exciting!
Please be kind to me :)